The last few weeks have been brutal. I’ve been struggling immensely and trying to hold it all together for my family, who are not well at all themselves.
Mum has finally come through the bad patch after her last round of chemo, I think. We are getting more stuff done together. Yesterday, especially. We crashed in the afternoon and didn’t finish what we’d wanted to do, but looking back, we still got a lot done!
Yesterday was a day of: Read More
The past few days have been really busy and a couple of days ago I was crying and numb all over the place, I just couldn’t help it, but with help from Mum I seem to have picked myself up a bit.
My family are amazing. I cannot believe the stuff that gets thrown at us, and the way we support each other with love, and laughter. My mum is going through a crazy ride at the moment, and she still manages to make me laugh until there’s tears, often at the one thing that I’m trying to forget- her cancer.
I think it has been quite awhile since my last post. It may not seem long but I was hoping to blog everyday and I just, I just became too depressed to even turn on my laptop, or look at the wordpress app on my phone. Read More
I’m lost. There’s no other word for it. I’m getting through every day, but how? I don’t know. I want a break. A break from my mind, from the voice, from the despair, from my every thought that I have to fight against. Sometimes I don’t see why it’s worth it. Read More
So, I created a blog. I don’t know who will be interested in what I have to say, but I need to write at the moment and my journal hasn’t been moved from where I put it when I was discharged from hospital a few months ago. It’s not that I don’t want to write in it, I do, I just honestly don’t know what to say (I’m hoping this will keep me more accountable) when I’m suffering more than when I was even impatient, and that last admission was a HUGE stuff up. Read More