Nespresso and love

The last few weeks have been brutal. I’ve been struggling immensely and trying to hold it all together for my family, who are not well at all themselves.

Mum has finally come through the bad patch after her last round of chemo, I think. We are getting more stuff done together. Yesterday, especially. We crashed in the afternoon and didn’t finish what we’d wanted to do, but looking back, we still got a lot done!

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The past few days have been really busy and a couple of days ago I was crying and numb all over the place, I just couldn’t help it, but with help from Mum I seem to have picked myself up a bit.

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Beautiful Trauma

Pinks latest album is called Beautiful Trauma. There’s two words that I’ve never put together before. So because that caught my attention I bought it, and I think I could honestly listen to Revenge (feat Eminem) on repeat at the moment. It just stuck in my head, I don’t know what it is about it. The story of how that song came to be amuses me too.

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My family are amazing. I cannot believe the stuff that gets thrown at us, and the way we support each other with love, and laughter. My mum is going through a crazy ride at the moment, and she still manages to make me laugh until there’s tears, often at the one thing that I’m trying to forget- her cancer.

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Iced Americano, please and thank you.

Today was another full day. I don’t know how I’m coping. Having so much support is wonderful and I’m not complaining but I’m really tired. I’m really struggling but I’m trying so hard so it’s hard not to get upset at yourself for still feeling like you do. I had a couple of good things happen today though.

A) a couple of these lifesavers driving with Dad:

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Struggle street with a side of coffee

Today, I’m struggling really hard. I don’t know why, but I just can’t get it together. My thoughts are intrusive, I feel physically sick and I just don’t know what to do. I’m listening to my mum talk to her friends and I just wish I was with my friends. But at the same time I don’t want to leave the house. The comedy club that feels like a second home to me (check them out @ SDCC) is having a 25th anniversary gig this weekend and I need to ring and book but I just can’t bring myself to pick up the phone.

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