The last few weeks have been brutal. I’ve been struggling immensely and trying to hold it all together for my family, who are not well at all themselves.
Mum has finally come through the bad patch after her last round of chemo, I think. We are getting more stuff done together. Yesterday, especially. We crashed in the afternoon and didn’t finish what we’d wanted to do, but looking back, we still got a lot done!
Yesterday was a day of: Read More
The past few days have been really busy and a couple of days ago I was crying and numb all over the place, I just couldn’t help it, but with help from Mum I seem to have picked myself up a bit.
Pinks latest album is called Beautiful Trauma. There’s two words that I’ve never put together before. So because that caught my attention I bought it, and I think I could honestly listen to Revenge (feat Eminem) on repeat at the moment. It just stuck in my head, I don’t know what it is about it. The story of how that song came to be amuses me too.
My family are amazing. I cannot believe the stuff that gets thrown at us, and the way we support each other with love, and laughter. My mum is going through a crazy ride at the moment, and she still manages to make me laugh until there’s tears, often at the one thing that I’m trying to forget- her cancer.
I think it has been quite awhile since my last post. It may not seem long but I was hoping to blog everyday and I just, I just became too depressed to even turn on my laptop, or look at the wordpress app on my phone. Read More
I’m lost. There’s no other word for it. I’m getting through every day, but how? I don’t know. I want a break. A break from my mind, from the voice, from the despair, from my every thought that I have to fight against. Sometimes I don’t see why it’s worth it. Read More
Today was another full day. I don’t know how I’m coping. Having so much support is wonderful and I’m not complaining but I’m really tired. I’m really struggling but I’m trying so hard so it’s hard not to get upset at yourself for still feeling like you do. I had a couple of good things happen today though.
A) a couple of these lifesavers driving with Dad: