Today was another full day. I don’t know how I’m coping. Having so much support is wonderful and I’m not complaining but I’m really tired. I’m really struggling but I’m trying so hard so it’s difficult not to get upset at yourself for still feeling like you do. I had a couple of good things happen today though.
A) a couple of lifesavers (in the form of iced long blacks!) while driving with dad…
Today I woke up feeling worse than I did yesterday. But a few things have happened that brightened my day. Some of Mums friends came, one with her 6wk old son, Theodore. I nursed him for ages and he is just beautiful. He certainly brightened Mum up alot too, arent they just the cutest?
Today, I’m struggling really hard. I don’t know why, but I just can’t get it together. My thoughts are intrusive, I feel physically sick and I just don’t know what to do. I’m listening to my mum talk to her friends and I just wish I was with my friends. But at the same time I don’t want to leave the house. The comedy club that feels like a second home to me (check them out @ SDCC) is having a 25th anniversary gig this weekend and I need to ring and book but I just can’t bring myself to pick up the phone.